im-simply-not-there:

Shadow people, shadow people,
where have you been?
I waited for so, oh so long,
Tried to let you in.

You always come and visit me,
At nighttime in my room.
Its just so silent in here,
This place is such a gloom.

Im interested and horrified,
By every little bit.
The bit of you I see at…

I keep hearing my case manager, WHAT THE FUCK?! He just suddenly sprung on me when I walked back into my room after washing my hands. He’s talking to me saying things like:

“How are you?”

“Are you ok?”

“We can talk about this at another time”

“Maybe we can catch up a bit later”

“I could send someone over there to help you”

“I was at a meeting”

Omfg I normally don’t get people I know but this is just to weird. Alright I’m done with everything. I would say goodnight but I can’t sleep weeeoooww 1:04am.

"I’m just a spirit trying to be human."

Alexi Murdoch  (via bluishtigers)

(Source: mouthfulofdawn)

"When I was little, I had this science book. There was a section on “What would happen to the world if there was no friction?” Answer: “Everything on earth would fly into space from the centrifugal force of revolution.” That was my mood."

Haruki Murakami - Dance Dance Dance (via murakamistuff)

IT DOESN’T MATTER IF THE LYRICS ARE WRONG OR IT’S JUST NOT IN ENGLISH!

WHOGIVESAFUCK!?

Today I was talking to my case manager and one of the things we talked about was the things I did while I was manic, I said that I applied to a bunch of different uni’s this time with a more physics background (He also learnt why my current up coming degree is a medical background while I wanted to be an astrophysicist (I was manic then too and though that the medical degree needed my intelligence on their side) It made sense to him then once I explained that  - I messed up), got frustrated with people, painted more, slept little, etc…
One of the things I also said was that I got the mail in my underwear. At first he didn’t understand what I said because I was laughing so hard at it, so when I repeated it, he laughed a bit at it too and wrote down that.

Collected mail in her underwear

Not any of the other stuff, just that. And all his previous notes were the characters of my voices. So his notes on me are more like, voices, voices, voices, collected mail in her underwear.

That underwear day I had no shame, I was walking around the house in them even though it was a day my sister was home. Almost went shopping down the street in them too, but surprisingly I didn’t even go shopping - I can’t even remember what stopped me. Probably my thoughts changed to something else quick enough so I didn’t actually do that.
Haha, imagine the reaction if I did though! Kind of disappointed I didn’t.